The Real Me

Hey everyone lets act fake!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 15:31:56 GMT

So sometimes I feel like everyone of you is fake. I hate being where i am at, and I hate you for being there too. BUt maybe when this shit goes down the drain even farther you will look and see that you messed up for being so stupid as to see that we can do better. But I dont' even care, I'll do the bare minimum I have to do and that is it. So we'll see how everyone looks at things once there is noone there to look at. We only get one or two shots at making an impact on people so lets be fake and hope that they don't see through us, instead of being real. Thank you for making us like everyone else and allowing us to "conform" to how you want us to act. That is what we are about isn't it. About all being the same and being fake, until they get in and realize that's not how we are at all. Cool...real cool..

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 23:17:59 GMT

I am looking for someone, who can take as much as I give, give back as much as I need, and still have the will to live. I am intense, I am in need, I am in pain, I am only human

When you leave, remember the place where you have left me. If you go back and I'm not there, it doesn't mean I don't still care about you anymore, I just I care for you so much that I've left to search for you

"Why am I afraid to lose you when you're not even mine..."

"I've always wondered if my life would have been better if I hadn’t met you, but then I think of what my life would have been like if I hadn’t."

"I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful."

"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about!"

"Never let someone go if you want to find out if what you have is really love, because they may think that you want to move on to something better and they wont try to come back."

"If for some reason I started to miss you, would I be wrong in saying so and actually trying to do something about it?"

"If you think you found the right person... stop the search and never let them go. Rememeber that the world is a huge place, for when you lose someone, you have to search the world all over again."

"Wait for the guy that pursues you, the one that makes every day seem magical, the guy that makes you feel so amazing about yourself and can make you smile every minute you are with him. Wait for the guy who shows you off to his friends when you are in sweats, but appreciates when you get all dolled up for him. Wait for the guy who puts you at the center of his universe, because obviously he will be at the center of yours."

Tue, 17 May 2005 22:35:56 GMT

SHAUNNAHOLLOWAY
S	is for	Sensual
H	is for	Hip
A	is for	Active
U	is for	Unreal
N	is for	Normal
N	is for	Neat
A	is for	Active
H	is for	Hot
O	is for	Outrageous
L	is for	Luscious
L	is for	Likeable
O	is for	Openhearted
W	is for	Wacky
A	is for	Alluring
Y	is for	Yummy

What Does Your Name Mean?

Tue, 17 May 2005 22:34:14 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Randomness from Lansing!!

Tue, 17 May 2005 14:51:00 GMT

So yesterday was the most random day i've had in a while! Me steph and amy decide to go to lansing shopping. Well after spending about 45 minutes in the mall we decide to try and get lost in lansing! This turns out to be harder than expected. So in order to get lost we take the "special penny" and decide that we turn right when the penny lands on heads and left when it lands on tails. So we do this for a while and end up always finding our way back to the highway... so needless to say we didn't get lost. So we are driving and we find "the village" *where i live* only in lansing and we decided to try and use my pass key to get in and well it doesn't work so we laugh and try to speed away quickly and that just doesn't seem to work. So we end up in the country and still not lost because we still end up at the highway. So we drive and see the capital building and decide to be tourists for a while. We park in front of Cooley Law school right by the capital building and steph changes on the side of the road cuz it was cold. So we walk around looking for a bar so we could have a beer. So we find one drink our beer and decide its probably time to go since we've been gone for 5 hours. As we are leaving we run into Kendy leaving work and talk with her for a few and then we ask her how to get back to the highway. So she gives us directions and what happens? WE GET LOST!! haha unbelievable. We can't get lost when we try but when we don't want to we get lost. So we take her directions and end up in the ghetto. Seriously scary. So after trying to find our way out of this death trap we end up where we left off when trying to get lost. So we did a big loop around where we needed to be. But we see gas for 1.97 and we stop (in the ghetto) and get gas cuz well it was cheap. So then we go home. All the while being mean while driving through the construction where the speed limit was 45 and we went 40 to see how much traffic we could get behind us :) it was funny! I had a blast yesterday and well we are going to rpeat the day when its warm enough to walk around and be tourists again! But here are some random quotes of the day!

<>Steph don't honk you dont' know where we are</>
Holly pajamas look at the traffic
you pirate whore...arrgg...
Holly pajamas we are totally in the ghetto
he's got a "glock" in his back pocket
Me: beef hamburgers as opposed to what.. Steph: Cow. (haha )
Some Guy in the mall: Have you heard about our new picture deal? Me: No thanks im allergic to pictures!!
Lets try and get lost. Heads is right and tails is left.
Didn't we pass that sign like 2 hours ago?
Deaf child area, dont try to honk they can't hear you anyway!

Mon, 09 May 2005 14:54:21 GMT

Well it is may 9th and im home for the summer. well that was the original plan until stupid oasis didn't let me and christy sign up for our clinic so now we have to take it summer II. But its okay at least I won't have anything else to do cuz i don't think im going to be working! So im only home until like the middle of june then its back to good old mt. pleasant to start my summer class and then my final year as an undergrad! But the only thing that sucks is that im prolly not gonna be workin at samsonite anymore :) oh okay so that really doesnt' suck but the lack of a steady income does suck! But im gonna try to find some random job to support my shopping problem! So im back in clio so i expect to be hanging out with everyone i dont' normally see when im home!! So yeah for summer...!

Pondering Life :(

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 15:04:51 GMT

So maybe life isn't really that scary. I mean I've been on my own for four years now, but everyday my future seems to get closer and I am starting to feel like I am really not prepared. I used to sit in high school dreaming of the day that I could go to college and just get away from my family and make new friends. I used to think that I could go away and just be someone different because none of the people that I was going to meet would know who I "was" in high school. But somehow I feel like I have not really changed "who" I am but just who I maybe pretend to be. Im not really that secure with who I am and I don't really like who I am right now. But everyday I wake up and I pretend to be happy with who I am and where I am at in life. But I always wake up with this empty feeling. This life that I have built for myself is not fulfilling the void that I fill and i dont know how to change that. I thought that maybe joining a sorority would help fill that part of my life but its not. It just really makes me feel even more empty. I love all of my sisters but I am not getting what I need to get from them. Everything in life right now just seems so..so.. fake. Maybe its just a feeling that I get but it feels like I am not living life, but more so just going through the motions. i am not really living right now, it just feels really like I am just in a daze everyday like its a dream. A bad dream that maybe i'll wake up from someday. Shit i just want to wake up and be happy with everything. To be able to wake up one day and feel that life is not pulling a fast one on me and that maybe all of these "memories" that I have are just dreams. I want to start over and live life. Not just be in it. People always say that you can create your own future but right now I feel like the future is already set and that I will just have to deal with what life gives me. But damn it why can't i shake this feeling that I have. Maybe its becasue i have been in college for four years and what I have I really accomplished? What I have I done to help others? All I have done is waste time in classes and waste time working and waste time pretending that this thing that I call my life has not been wasted. I want to start over, fresh, start life over and try to change the things that I have done. Change the fact that I am not feeling like a failure at all of the things that I do. I bust my ass to try and help others but it just seems to go unnoticed, and I do them without asking for help and maybe thats what pisses me off the most. is that I VOLUNTEER to do things and do them knowing that there is no recognition for these things. If the body is just a carrier for the soul, then why does my body feel so empty. That's scary. Does that mean that I have somehow on this journey through life I have lost my spirit? Or did I ever really have one. Why am I so synical right now, and why does life always have to be about me. Why can't it be about others. But I want my life to be about me. Does that make me selfish? Does that make me a bad person? If it doesn't then why and the hell do I feel like one. None of this makes sense. Nothing in this life makes sense to me. In a year I will be off to another "chapter" of my life and this scares me to death. This scares me because I don't know what to do with another chapter of unfulfilled dreams and expectations. I feel like life is moving so fast yet I am being left behind. The reality that I am not where I want to be or where i need to be hits me like a brick wall. And its hurts. Its scary to know that 3 of my best friends have already settled their future. They are getting married, having children and getting real jobs. i feel left behind by my friends and that's scary. I don't want to be the one who always is on the run always searching for something better. I want to be the one with security in their life. To be safe. But I don't want a safe life. I want adventure and excitement. Its such a lose lose situation. Because I want security but I want to be spontaneous. I can't have both. Why? Why can't we have our cake and eat it too? Damn it. Why am I so weird today. I guess that maybe when you sit and ponder on your life for so long that eventually you will get that empty feeling, that feeling that maybe you left something behind that you were supposed to take with you. That feeling that you have not done the things that you expected to do and youw on't be able to go back and do them. Why can't I just live and let live, and be happy with who I am and where I am at in life. Why am I so unhappy with this life. Its noone elses fault where i am at today. I have built my life as I have wanted to. I mean my life isnt' that bad. i have a wonderful family, friends and wonderful sisters. I have an amazing boyfriend who has stood by me for 4 years and has never questioned who i am. But that doesnt mean that I dont question myself. As a human race we are never happy with what we have, and we always want more. We question who we are and what life has to offer us, instead of what we have to offer life. I guess that just shows that I am only human.

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 23:32:20 GMT

oh and one more thing... shut your damn kid up this is a library and not a daycare....because seriously if i wasn't here just screwing around on the computer i would come over there and ask you to please quiet your child... okay so maybe i wouldn't but im working on getting up to that amount of courage... because its just common courtesy to not have a screaming child in a library... SSSSSHHHHH THE LIBRARY IS FOR QUIET TIME!

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 23:28:29 GMT

okay so i seriosly have a new pet peeve and its really starting to annoy me. so here it goes... I absolutely hate... i mean hate with rage and all that shit that goes along with it... when someone is superficial about EVERYTHING. It just sort of makes people sound dumb about life when they judge things simply on outward appearances. and it just seems that when someone is like that they seem to have a negative attitude to go along with it. MAybe its just me that seems to absolutely hate this but if there is anyone else out there who does please let me know cuz right now i feel really bad about hating this "personality trait" i guess you could call it. But seriously is it that hard to think that maybe there is more to a person than what they wear, or how they do their hair or all together how they look. Some people just dont' really give a shit if they go to class in the pj's or if they go to the movies with their hair in one big ass ponytail right on the side of their damn head. its not always what or how this person really is. I mean what if i weighed 500 lbs and smelled like shit all the time but still had the same personality... would that change who i was? Not really in my opinion but im afraid that some people seriously still would not be able to look past that and it SERIOUSLY PISSES ME OFF

okay now that im done with that im all sunshine and freaking flowers....okay so maybe all my aggression isn't completely out but in case you didn't get the memo or your just dumb and didn't catch on... DON'T BE SUPERFICIAL AND DON'T BE NEGATIVE ABOUT LIFE BECAUSE YOU'LL JUST END UP ALONE AND PISSED FOR THE REST OF YOUR DAMN LIFE...

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 23:00:17 GMT

So I offically just had the worst day of my life :( I found out today that my grandma has cancer and quite honestly I am scared to death. I was having a nice walk through the park just enjoying the day, and called my mom to see how my gram's doctors appointment went and she said "not good"and I asked her what they said and she then told me that my gram has throat cancer. I immediatly started crying and the thought that I might lose my grandma started running through my head. She will have to undergo radiation once a day for 6-8 weeks... and well I don't think I can write anymore about this right now... but please keep her in your prayers, our family needs it right now :(

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 23:29:51 GMT

So here's what you do: Pick one word from each pair that you think best describes me!
* dominant or submissive
* logical or intuitive
* social or loner
* kinky or vanilla
* cute or sophisticated
* kitten or puppy
* warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
* leader or follower
* quiet or talkative
* spontaneous or planned
* teddy bear or porcelain doll
* hiking or window shopping
* tequila or vodka
* top or bottom
* bare foot or shoes
* jeans or slacks
* tender or rough
* aware or dreamy
* nerd or geek

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 23:23:48 GMT

Well had a busy week last week, with greek week and all. Not to mention all of the shit that I was supposed to have done for school. Key word: supposed to :( But oh well. This week is my week to just lay back and have a great time. Well except for the exam I have on thursday. But I will study for that someother time :) Well actually I'll study for it on wednesday. But as for Tuesday. Yeah... you know me, I love to go out.... okay well maybe not to the bar... but tuesday is a different story. I am going to go out and have one hell of a time! I just need to let off some stress!

Well anywho... Friday was mock rock, and as much as everyone says that we didnt' look bad, I think we could have used a lot more practice. But oh well.. I had fun so I don't really care. Greek week is just a pain in the ass anyway, to much stress and competition. Then saturday I went to mikes :) His sister got married. I went with andrew and rita and had a blast! **Mike was in the wedding so he was doing stuff a lot of the night ** but i had a great time! WE danced, even though there was no cage! and laughed and met a lot of mikes family that I hadn't met before. Which is kind of odd since we have been together for so long. But it was a blast! I stayed @ his house on saturday and we went to bed at about 3. He then decided to wake me up at 9am because he was up, so i was awake and all of a sudden he wanted to go back to sleep. Well I told him I was just going to get going and so we finally got up and went and ate breakfast. I left at about 11:30, got stuck in traffic and it took me over an hour to go 32 miles... damn traffic!
Went to Sam's with my mommy and got some food, so I can now cook some stuff! mm... pizza rolls! My favorite! Then drove back up to Mt. P.
WE had elections on sunday and it went pretty good except that it last almost 4 hours. But we got some great girls in some great positions. **Abbie im way excited for you :) told you so!!** So I have a great team next semester! And I am sure i'll be proud of each of them! Abbie=New Member Ed Christy= New member ed assistant B=alumni relations!

im bored..I want to go rent a movie... hm...

but for now i need to go work on my project since it was due thursday and we still gotta finish up a bunch of shit. But i'll let you all know how tuesday works out :) If anyone wants to go just let me know... everyone is welcome... well if your 21 you are! If not better luck next time!

MUAH!

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 22:55:17 GMT

Dance Marathon....the longest time anyone should ever have to dance! But at least its for a good cause!
Greek Week has offically begun!

I will be dancing from 8pm until 8am! This is going to be very very interesting!

We are going to kick ass this year :)

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 15:28:33 GMT

Well today officially kicks off the longest weekend of my life :) Today I have to work on a project until 2, a meeting @ 2, then mock rock practice from 5-8 **however I have to get some homework done so im leavin @ 7 :(** then home to do homework until who knows when, then im sleeping until initiation @ 12 saturday. Then going back home to sleep because I am doing dance marathon :) So i'll be dancing *along with 11 of my sisters* from 7pm-8am. yes that's right 12 hours (daylight savings time!!) It is going to be fun, but exhausting. Then sunday im sleeping until the parade and yell like hell. Then back to sleep before mock rock practice. Then the real craziness begins next week with all of the greek week activities and all of the school work i have to do. But this year we are going to step it up and show everyone what we are made of. Hopefully people finally give us the respect that we deserve. MMUUAAHH...to all of my sisters! You are all amazing!

Oh yeah and i definitely went to the Wayside looking like a jack ass last night but it was so much fun!

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 00:42:02 GMT

So I got my grade for my BCA test I took yesterday and well lets just say it was not the greatest. I thought I did better than a 75% but evidentally not :( Guess I will just have to pay better attention in class and study harder for the final exam. I just need to bring my grade up to a B and I will be happy enough with that. But as of right now that is not looking to promising. Other than that things are wonderful!
Mock rock practice went great and I am so pumped up for the rest of practices and the rest of what greek week has in store for us. And I'm sure our partners will do a kick ass job too! With so many different opinions and ideas it is hard to get along but we did it and of course we will do our best and hopefully come out strong this year!
The weather was great today and I went for a little walk in the park and did a lot of thinking. Ya know even though I'm scared of alot of things when you put things into perspective its not so scary :) Even though there is a lot going on in my mind that I can't really share with anyone else I think that it will all work out in the end even if its not the way I might predict things right now.
This week and next week are going to be so crazy. So friday is strictly devoted to doing homework and getting ahead in all of my classes so that I don't have stress out next week and end up letting my grades slip. Right now I have all A's **Well other than the godforsaken BCA class** Ken with his big glasses and weird clothes and foamy mouth really needs to just curve his damn class so that not everyone fails** but oh well..some teachers just suck!

But anyway... enough of that. I am going to go get changed for the risk management workshop and for practice. Hopefully I get to get in bed earlier than I did last night. But at least I don't have my 331 class in the morning so that's something to look forward to!

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 01:05:52 GMT

30 Things That Make Me Unbelievable Happy

Going for a walk!
People who make me smile for no reason
Spending time with my friends
Vegas!! *only with steph though!!*
Sunshine on my face
Writing
Camping in August with my best friends!
The smell of spring
Being in love!!
Getting to know someone new!
Sad songs
Painting
Laughing
Kissing
My family
Randomly dancing in the car!
Snuggling in my big cozy bed..
Watching movies
Hanging out with my mommy!
Dancing when there is no music!
The feeling that theres butterflies in your stomach!
Being myself, no matter who Im around
Just driving around when its nice outside
Hugs!
Surfing with Keri, Dawn and Steph in Keri's pool!
Girls Night!
Feeling nervous around someone and your not quite sure why
Searching for my "Walrus"
My Sisters!
When someone says they are thinking of me!

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 04:47:29 GMT

I set out on a narrow way many years ago Hoping I would find true love along the broken road But I got lost a time or two Wiped my brow and kept pushing through I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you Every long lost dream led me to where you are Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars Pointing me on my way into your loving arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you I think about the years I spent just passing through I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you But you just smile and take my hand You've been there you understand It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true Every long lost dream led me to where you are Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars Pointing me on my way into your loving arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you Now I'm just rolling home Into my lover's arms This much I know is true That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you That God blessed the broken road That led me straight to you.

Life is Good

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 03:40:15 GMT

Life is good! That's all I can really say right now. I am really happy with how things are going right now. Its not really anything special that's happening, I guess its just that I have great friends, a wondeful family and an amazing boyfriend :) Even though I haven't seen him in a month :( I really do miss him! I had a blast on St. Patrick's day...except for a few moments of insanity...but oh well... other than that it was fun. So we had courting tonight and it was a blast! We went around and sang to all of the frat houses! We changed the words to 1,2 Step...it was hillarious!! Tomorrow they come and sing to us and then we find out who our partners for Greek Week are... its only 12 days until it starts and im soooo pumped! Last year was a lot of fun and im sure this year will be even better.
My moms birthday is saturday and mike is coming up :) YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, anyway... Im kinda bored right now...but I should probably clean up my kitchen since i baked 150 cookies today for courting...and then decorated them! I will be perfectly content if I never have to bake another cookie in my life. So I guess i'll go do something... buh bye

Just some quotes I found that I liked :)

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 02:17:11 GMT

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the strength to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference

"Before you criticise someone you should walk a mile in their shoes ... that way when you criticise them you are a mile away and you have their shoes!"

Life is nothing more than a test, the hardest test that anyone can ever take. There is no studying or knowing the next question. Each question gets harder, but we must pass, we must push to the limit, if even sometimes on faith alone."

"You have been summoned to court for trespassing my dreams, stealing my heart and robbing my feelings. If guilty: you are sentenced to be with me forever. How do you plead?"

"We could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors, and yet ... they all exist very nicely in the same box."

"If ever you think of me out of the blue, just remember it's all the kisses I've blown in the air finally catching up with you!"

"If it is meant to be, our hearts will find each other when we meet. And if our hearts melt together so will our bodies and souls. Then every word and every touch will fuel our passion flame. I will be yours, you will be mine, and we will be one."

"It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear."

"Why say the sky is the limit, when there are footprints on the moon?"

"The path of a relationship with true love is like a trip together down an old dirt path in the woods - sometimes it'll be beautiful and easy, other times it will be a rough walk with its ups and downs, turns and twists. But when you think you're out of the woods and you look back, you are glad the journey took place, and in all, you are glad you and your special someone took it together. But the journey is not over, you have only just begun. So, don't loose faith; keep on walking. If your love is true, the path you two take will never end."

VEGAS WAS AMAZING

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 20:09:16 GMT

Oh My god, Las Vegas was so amazing. It was the best four days of my life and I really didnt' want to leave the town or the people we met there. Of course me and stephanie being the crazy people that we are made 7 great friends plus about a thousand others that well we just talked to because we could. We flew in on monday and it was a really long flight (about 6 hours total flying time) and we of course we drank on the plane and made friends!! We'll then we went and got out luggage and took a shuttle to our hotel. It was amazing to just see everything, and we made friends there too! We checked into our hotel and looked out of our room on our balcony and had the most amazing view. We could stand on our balcony and see Bellagio, Ceasars Palace, Flamingo, Mirage, Harrahs, Rio, The Forum Shops and so much more. The weather was great at about 10pm I would say it was about 65. We went out and explored the first night it was pretty cool cuz me and steph danced under the Eifel Tower to the music of the Bellagio Water Show :) Of course we didn't know the song nor was our dancing that great but we still had fun. We went to bed about about 2 Vegas time which was about 5 our time. So we were pretty tired. Tuesday we woke up and realized that there were mountains. We started drinking at 9am *Free drinks* of course!!! And we walked around all day and then bough tickets to chippendales. We went to the Wax museum with a little buzz from all of the alcohol we had consumd in the few hours we had been awake. My dreams came true when I got married to George Clooney in a wedding dress and everyting :) I love him! We went home an got ready went to a fancy restaraunt and ordered chicken finger s:) hehe so we may have been crazy but not crazy enough to try new food !!! Chippendales was unbelievable, and not to forget that the guys were almost naked so it was amazing. WE then proceeded to walk the strip where we met 5 guys from Penn State. We hung out with them all night on tuesday and we ended up walking all of the city. Taking pictures in weird places with weird people! Wednesday we of course started drinking early and started our long walk to the Stratosphere. We only made it about as far as the Stardust because some people told us that two girls should not venture out that far at night, plus our waitress @ stardust told us the same thing. So we ate our $5 prime rib which was soooo goood and then walked back to our hotel where we met 2 guys from north carolina and we ended us sitting with them @ the Roulette table and winning then $600, so while we were really excited we met 4 more guys from new york, 2 of them were actually from vegas I think. One of them was about to turn 21 so we all decided to go hit up some bars. So we got changed and went to Ceasars to the Shadow bar, then seen a fight in the middle of Ceasars Palace. We hung out with our New york friends and our Penn State friends and then I went home and slept for about an hour and then got packed and we explored all day on Thursday. Went to Coyote Ugly and got wasted off of hurricanes with extra shots!!! Then we had to leave :( Our plane left at 1055pm Vegas time so almost 2am our time. We almost missed our flight because me ands teph both passed out on the chairs in the airport. We landed in Indianapolis @ 530 our time and got home at 9am our time. So I hadn't slept more than about 3 hours in two days. So much I left out but If I told about everything then this LJ entry wouldnever end. But lets just say that it was amazing and We are going back in June. I hope that everyone that we met and sang to randomly had fun too!!! But I love vegas even though I didn't sleep for over 48 hours . And have been sleeping since I got home. It was amazing and the best spring break I have ever had.

We'll I don't think this is true

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 19:51:24 GMT

Karen

Which Mean Girl are you?
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Fri, 04 Mar 2005 19:42:15 GMT

~Copy this list ~
~Bold what is true. ~
~Leave plain what is false.~
~If you're not sure, or the answer is complicated, put it in italics.~
~add another sentence to the end before you post~

001. I MISS SOMEBODY RIGHT NOW.
002. i watch more tv than i used to.
003. i love olives.
004. I LOVE SLEEPING.
005. i own a home.
006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. i love to play video games.
008. I've done something illegal
009. i have been the psycho ex in a past relationship.
010. i have acne-free skin.most of the time!!
011. i curse frequently.
012. I HAVE CHANGED A LOT MENTALLY OVER THE LAST YEAR.
013. I HAVE A HOBBY. painting...writing...
014. I'VE BEEN TO ANOTHER COUNTRY. mexico and canada
015. I'm really really smart
016. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
017. i have a secret that i am scared to reveal.
018. I'M PARANOID AT TIMES.
019. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
020. i need money right now.
021. i love sushi.
022. i talk really, really fast sometimes.
023. I HAVE FRESH BREATH IN THE MORNING.
024. I HAVE SEMI-LONG HAIR.
025. i have lost money in las vegas.well i havent' right now...but im sure as of monday I will have!!
026. I HAVE AT LEAST ONE BROTHER AND/or SISTER.half brothers and sisters... and a ton of sorority sisters :)
027. i was born in a country outside of north america.
028. I SHAVE MY LEGS.
029. I HAVE A TWIN.
030. I LIKE THE WAY I LOOK.
031. i have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
032. i am usually pessimistic.
033. I HAVE MOOD SWINGS.
034. I think britney spears is pretty
035. i have cheated on a significant other. in the past...a long long long time ago :)
036. i have a hidden talent.
037. i'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
038. I am currently single
039. i have kissed someone of the same sex.
040. I ENJOY TALKING ON THE PHONE.
041. I PRACTICALLY LIVE IN SWEATPANTS OR PJ PANTS.
042. I LOVE TO SHOP.
043. i would rather shop than eat.
044. I would classify myself as ghetto
045. I'm not obsessed with my LJ
046. i don't hate anyone.
047. i'm a pretty good dancer
048. i'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
049. i have a cell phone.
050. i watch mtv on a daily basis.
051. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
052. I have never been in a real relationship before.
053. I'VE REJECTED SOMEONE BEFORE.
054. i currently have a crush on someone.
055. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
056. I want to have kids in the future
057. I HAVE CHANGED A DIAPER BEFORE.
058. i've had the cops called on me before.
059. I BITE MY NAILS.
060. I HAVE A LOT TO LEARN.
061. i've dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
062. I AM VERY SHY AROUND THE OPPOSITE SEX.
063. I'M ONLINE 24/7 EVEN AS AN AWAY MESSAGE.
064. I HAVE AT LEAST 5 AWAY MESSAGES SAVED.
065. I HAVE BEEN REJECTED BY SOMEONE.
066. i have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
067. i own the 'south park' movie.
068. I HAVE AVOIDED WORK TO PLAY ON LIVEJOURNAL.
069. i enjoy country music.
070. I LOVE MY BEST FRIENDS.
071. i think that pizza hut has the best pizza.
072. i'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
073. i love michael jackson, scandals and all.
074. HALLOWEEN IS AWESOME CUZ YOU GET FREE CANDY.
075. I WATCH SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS AND I LIKE IT.
076. i have dated a close friend's ex.
077. I'm happy as of this moment.
078. i have gone scuba diving.
079. I'VE HAD A CRUSH ON SOMEONE I'VE NEVER MET.
080. i've kissed someone i knew i shouldn't.
081. I play a musical intrument
082. i strongly dislike math.
083. I'm procrastinating on something right now...packing for vegas :)
084. i own and use a library card.does my chip card count?!
085. i fall in 'lust' more than in 'love'.
086. I THINK LORD OF THE RINGS IS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS EVER.
087. i'm obsessed with the tv show 'the oc'.
088. I AM RESENTFUL THAT I HAVE TO GROW UP.
089. I AM An entirely DIFFERENT PERSON AROUND DIFFERENT PEOPLE.
090. I THINK THE WORLD WOULD BE A BETTER PLACE IF PEOPLE WOULD JUST SMILE MORE OFTEN.
091. I THINK RAMEN IS ONE OF THE BEST FOODS IN THE WHOLE WORLD.
092. i am suffering of a broken heart.
093. I am nerd more like a dork
094. no matter where i am or who i'm with, i always seem to be lonely.
095. i am left handed and proud of it.
096. I TRY NOT TO CHANGE MYSELF FOR SOMEONE.
097. i have had major surgery...
098. i am listening to radiohead right now.
099. SOME PEOPLE CALL ME BY A NICKNAME.
100. i once stole a music stand.
101. i like pumpkin pie.
102. i own over 200 cds.
103. i work 7 days a week. between school and work yes I do
104. i don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
105. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.
106. i'm still in my pj's.
107. i'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
108. i've done drugs other than alcohol or cigarettes.
109. i'm having trouble sleeping.
110. i am a cuddler. only sometimes
111. i am abnormally obsessed with all things buffy/angel.
112. I LOVE COMFORT FOOD.
113. I'm a right winged christian conservative and proud of it
114. i'm catholic.
115. I CAN WALK A MILE WITHOUT FEELING LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE OVER IT
116. I AM A COLLEGE STUDENT.
117. I LIKE TO COOK.
118. i hate vacuuming with a passion.
119. I'M ADDICTED TO PHOTOGRAPHY AND PICTURE FRAMES.
120. i have performed in the rocky horror picture show.
121. I GENERALLY GET ALONG WITH MY PARENT(S).
122. I like Shakespeare
123. I LIKE TO SING.
124. i have things that i want to say to people, but i won't/can't because i don't want to hurt/be hurt by them.
125. I'VE COUNTED DOWN THE DAYS TILL SUMMER.
126. i've fulfilled someone's dare at a party or gathering.
127. i challenge people to duels, and when i do, i mean it.
128. i constantly have my head in the clouds daydreaming.
129. i was in labor for 30 hours with no pain medication.
130. i own more than three items of vinyl clothing.
131. i read hardcore christian bible tracts because i think they're funny.
132. i hate to drive.
133. i'm unemployed but would rather sit on my butt and play video games than look for a job.
134. i have a serious taste for older men/women. older by like..2-3 years
135. I HAD A HAPPY CHILDHOOD.
136. i have an unhealthy obsession with certain child actors.
137. i am an only child.
138. sometimes, I actually like my job
139. i love animals, and have had at least one pet.
140. I love writing letters
141. i do not know how to swim.
142. i know how to shoot a gun.
143. i am currently pregnant with my first baby.
144. i am currently experiencing physical pain. yes because the doctor gave me two shots :(
145. i've lost time at work this week because my car was encased in an ice flow.
146. i'm looking for a new job that i actually like.
147. i am ocd about at least one thing. quite a few things
148. i have been paid money for my art.
149. I never tan
150. all of my grandparents are still living.
151. I WANT TO GET MARRIED.
152. i would be happy if i never had to wear shoes again.
153. i got a haircut within the last week.
154. I love Jazz music
155. my sister is my best friend. my reals sister and my sorority!
156. I KNOW WHAT'S IMPORTANT TO ME, AND I'M NOT ASHAMED OF IT.
157. i hated the movie 'the notebook'.
158. i can memorize a two page piece of music in a day.
159. I'm such a morning person and it ticks people off.
160. cats drive me nuts
161. i don't usually regret things that i have done, but right now i feel pretty regretful about something.
162. i have more of a "pain in the ass" than an actual boyfriend/girlfriend
163. I have drifted from friends because I am somewhat stubborn.

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 17:03:13 GMT

So I leave for vegas in 3 days and im soooo sick. I had to go to the doctor yesterday because I couldnt' break my fever :( The doctor came to see my and my temp was only 99.3 which went down a lot from the time I left my house. Then he came in and gave me 2 shots in my butt :( It hurt... one of steroids and one of a super antibiotic. So then they made me lay there for 15 minutes to make sure I didn't feel weird about the shots. Well in that time my fever went frm 99.3 to 101.3 :( Not good. So after my two shots they gave me motrin 800 and two prescriptions. So I go to walmart to get my antibiotic filled and my steroids to strengthen my lungs and end up waiting for an hour because my insurance doesnt' have me listed. So then spend 127 on my prescritpions. Go home and lay on the couch. Where I have been since 7 oclock yesterday :( I am getting sick of sitting in the house but I want to get better so im not really sick when I go to vegas. Hope everyone has a safe spring break... I will have fun in Vegas hopefully if im not still sick... If not i'll suck it up and have a great time :) Until then I'll be in my house not getting to go outside or anything....

To My Friends

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 14:59:23 GMT

So as far as life goes right now I could really ask for anything more. I have the best friends anyone could ever ask for, the most amazing sisters, and the boyfriend that I always dreamed of having. Even though I don't keep in touch with all of my friends from home I still have then in a special place in my heart. Stephanie & Dawn: You women are amazing. So strong and on the right path for your life. I can only hope to have my life in order like you do. You are living your lives each day and living them with the men that you love. Its amazing that we have grown so close over absolutely nothing. Keri: You truly are an amazing person and I am grateful to have you in my life. You always provide the "comic relief" when we are together... And not just because we play drinking games and say "keri's a queer" it because you are always able to laugh with everyone even when you don't necessarily understand why. Zach: I miss you. We are so close I mean Alma and Mt. Pleasant aren't that far apart yet we don't really hang out like we should. But I will come visit after spring break. When things aren't so hectic. Rob: You truly are my best friend. A few summers ago we went through some rough stuff together and it really only brought us closer together. Noone will ever know or understand what you have gone through in the past year but I am always here for you even if I don't know whats bothering you. I love you more than anything and I know that I can call you family well because I have my own christmas ornament at your house for christmas. But regardless sometimes friends have rough patches and trust me we have had ours but we are able to talk about things and then we are fine. I am so glad that you are home safe and will be able to continue your life with Emily. She is an amazing woman and I hope that she gives you everything you would ever need both physically and emotionally. Sarah: Well what can I say. We went through Mazio and his "nuts", the butt toucher. And so much more that we could never possibly begin to list the memories we have together. You were there for me through everything and you told me not only what I needed to hear but also what I wanted to hear. Its great that in life you can find a friend that regardless of how far apart you drift and how long you go between talking that when we do get together its like nothing ever changed and no time had passed. We started out in life as friends and we will always be friends. I just hope that you understand that I am sorry that I drifted but I have drifted so far that I don't remember. You are an amazing woman and the strength that you always shows makes me look up to you.
I haven't drifted from all of my friends though...Stephanie: You are not only my best friend but you are also my sister. I am not afraid to be myself in front of you and act all crazy by taking pictures of random people on the highway. We can go to a movie and sing songs and not care what people think, we can drink at 12 and then again at 5 with the squirrell guy and all of that we can do because we don't really care what others say. SCREW THEM IF THEY CAN'T TAKE A JOKE. We have become so amazingly close in the past 2 years that I don't know what I would do without you. I would probably stalk you and then bash in your car. Just kidding... I know that I won't have to worry because well we don't have time drift apart. When we aren't together we are talking on the phone... or sleeping or occasionally in class. I hope you know how much I admire you for your strength in the past few months. I am so proud that you have finally stood your ground and realized that you are a separate person away from the other part of your life. Just remember that you can't let anyone bring you down. Stacy: You helped me find my walrus. And well its hard to explain our friendship Christy: well you are freaking hilarious. You and I spend a lot of time together in class but not much outside of class. But I still think we have a great time! You just need to take my advice about trying it and seeing if its there. If not then just stay happy where you are! Abbie and Boo: you two are crazy.....thats all I can say!!!Merissa: You are my little and well funny as hell. You and all of your boys. I know that we will get closer and become great friends. I am here for you whenever you need me. Even at 3 in the morning when you are excited about boys :) All of my sister: I love you all so much. I know I can count on anyone if I needed it. Thank you for all that you do!
To my boyfriend: Mike, I love you more than anything in this world. You have taught me so much about myself that I didnt' even know. I never thought that I could feel this way about one person but it is possible. I miss you everyday but I know that soon it will all be over and I won't have to miss you. You are the love of my life and I am thankful each and everyday that I have you in my life. You know what I am thinking even when I don't tell you or you can't even see me. And you know how to make me smile and feel a little bit better. I know that you love me and would do anything for me and that just gives me so much comfort. I can't believe its been almost 4 years but it has been the best years of my lfie. I would do anything for you and to make sure you are happy. Even if that means cleaning up after your friends and being a motel some weekends. Becuase I love you family and your friends like they were my own. Thank you for loving me for who I am and not being weirded out that I am a little silly sometimes. But hey you get the good and the bad with me :) I love you!

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Wed, 02 Mar 2005 02:15:51 GMT

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